I thank the Lord for the gift of life. I had the chance to deepen my
understanding about life and prayer through the lesson that I am going to
discuss with my students tomorrow. Once again I am reminded of how important
prayer is, and that praying for my welfare alone does not please Him. Prayer is
a contemplation of which I must be reflective of the condition of the people
around me and those that truly matter. Lord, I get easily emotional lately. I
get sad and melancholic instantly even when I just simply read a verse from a
poem or a line or two from a song, and somehow I have a feeling that perhaps
this is all because the start of my journey to Thailand is fast approaching. It
is the thought of forthcoming moments of parting that truly makes me sad. Lord,
there is never a day that I could not think about it. Every now and then, the
thought of it crosses my mind and as the days go by, my excitement at first has
now turned to doubt and anxiousness. You know so well Lord how much I try to be
strong and take enough courage to keep my enthusiasm in tact especially at
times when I am overwhelmed with doubt, doubt in myself if I can truly make
it-that is to be able to succeed and live independently in a foreign land. I do
not know what to expect at all. I am taking this risk. At times when doubts
start to cloud my vision, I painstakingly try to remind myself of this. “I am
steadfast in my resolve that I can do this, that for the first time ever in my
life, I dare to do something beyond what I think I can possibly bear.” To live far away from my family for quite some time will definitely make me lonely and
sad. My family is ultimately my home. My family is my security and they are my
source of strength and inspiration. I cannot imagine how life would really be like
not seeing them every day. How the care and warmth of my parents’ love in my
low moments at work and in life in general can do great miracles! Thinking
about it now makes my heart ache and it feels like I am breaking. I never
really thought it would be this hard.
But then, no matter how
troubling I find the situation is, nothing can change the fact that I have
already made the decision. I prayed for this and I asked God for His guidance
and thankfully, through His Divine providence, I felt His yes in this
life-changing endeavor that I will soon undertake. This is enough for me to
keep on because I know I am not alone. If I set my eyes beyond my worries and
acknowledge my inner strength, things will somehow work out positively and much
bearably. I believe. The situation I am into right now and the feelings that
come with it will work in me a greater revelation of who I really am. As I am
held accountable to the choices I make in life, I have to face courageously the
challenges ahead.
Lord, I simply want to
thank you in most sincerity for the wisdom, for the strength and courage, for
sending me my family to inspire me and my friends who share the same
aspirations with me. I will not be alone Lord. Your love will suffice, there is
nothing more I need. You will never leave me in difficult circumstances. You
will take this journey with me. You will love me still no matter what. You will
see me through my pains and embrace me with your comforting and reassuring
words of love and faithfulness.
Lord, as I excitedly
wait for that day to come, which will happen a month from now, my prayer is
that I will be strong enough not to be weakened by my fears, but become
stronger by your promises of prosperity, fulfillment, happiness, joy, peace,
and bliss. There will be difficult times Lord, be with me. It will be only you
and me Lord. Help me to find a good school Lord, that will understand and help
me out in my adjustment period. A school Lord, where the teacher is given due respect
and quality and fairness among colleagues live. A school with a good working
environment and a house that is safe and secured from any danger. Lord, I know
you will provide everything that I need to live decently, happily and
contentedly in the course of my stay in Thailand. With my friends, bless us
Lord with a smooth transition from our place of origin to our point of
destination. Grant us the confidence and serenity of mind to successfully pass
through the immigration without any hassle or inconveniences Lord. Bless our
trip, most especially Lord. Keep us safe in our waking moments and until we
yield in slumber. Lord, these are all my fervent prayers and intentions.
Without you, this will all be nothing. You are the giver of all gifts, You are
the master of our fates, and so with all my heart, I surrender to You oh Lord,
my fears of what lies ahead with the hope, that You have already set nothing
but the best for me, and for all of us. Take charge Lord God. Thy will be done.
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