Merry Christmas!!

Had a super fun Christmas party in school... this year's theme is Disney Come Alive... I had the chance to sing, dance, party and wear a minnie mouse costume... weeeee!!! definitely it was blast... here are some of the captured moments we had... :-)

with T. A and T. Romina

CCS family

Sir Lester, and the minnie... 

My mother dear made tailored this cute minnie costume :)

with Sir Joseph

singing Stop by Spice Girls... 

birit to the maxl!! :-)

get it on! :)

English and Soc Sci Dept.

the wonder of us, soul sisters! :) 

YOU

I never felt alone
I was happy on my own
And who would ever know there was something missing
I guess I didn`t see the possibility
It was waiting all the time
But it never crossed my mind
Till you opened up my eyes
Now all I think about is


You in my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it`s true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can`t imagine what I`d do
Without you

I never thought that love could be
Such a curiosity
What attracted you to me
Was so unexpected
But it was waiting all the time
And it never crossed my mind
Until you opened up my eyes
Now all I think about is 

You in my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it`s true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can`t imagine what I`d do
Without you

You in my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it`s true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can`t imagine what I`d do
Without you

In my life
In my dreams
In my heart I know it`s true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms
I have everything and now
I can`t imagine what I`d do
I can`t imagine what I`d do
Without you

again...

Dreaming, I must be dreaming
or am I really lying here with you?
Baby, you take me in your arms
And though I'm wide awake
I know my dream is coming true
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Magic, it must be magic
The way I hold you when the night just seems to fly
Easy for you to take me to a star
Heaven is that moment when I look into your eyes.
And Oh I just fall in love again
just one touch and then it happens every time
There I go I just fall in love again
and when I do, I can't help myself
I fall in love with you
Can't help myself
I fall in love with you

will of the wind

I spent half my life
Looking at the reasons things must change.
And half my life trying to make them stay the same.
But love would fade like summer into fall;
All that I could see was a mystery,
It made no sense at all.

The will of the wind, you feel it and then,
It will pass you blowing steady.
It comes and it goes, and God only knows,
You must keep your sails on ready.
So when it begins, get all that you can;
You must befriend the will of the wind.

I spent so many hours
Just thinking about the way things might have been.
And so many hours trying to bring the good times back again.
And so it goes for lonely hearted fools;
They let their days slip away,
Until they give into...

Each in her own way so brave, so determined, and so very desperate. Desperate to venture out, but afraid of what she'll miss when she goes. Desperate to get everything she wants, even when she's not exactly sure of what that is. Desperate for life to be perfect again, although she realizes it never really was. Desperate for a better future, if she can find a way to escape her past.

If you forget me...

I want you to know
one thing. 

You know how this is:  
if I look 
at the crystal moon, at the red branch 
of the slow autumn at my window, 
if I touch 
near the fire 
the impalpable ash 
or the wrinkled body of the log, 
everything carries me to you, 
as if everything that exists, 
aromas, light, metals, 
were little boats 
that sail 
toward those isles of yours that wait for me. 

Well, now,  
if little by little you stop loving me 
I shall stop loving you little by little. 

If suddenly  
you forget me 
do not look for me, 
for I shall already have forgotten you. 

If you think it long and mad,  
the wind of banners 
that passes through my life, 
and you decide 
to leave me at the shore 
of the heart where I have roots, 
remember 
that on that day, 
at that hour, 
I shall lift my arms 
and my roots will set off 
to seek another land. 

But  
if each day, 
each hour, 
you feel that you are destined for me 
with implacable sweetness, 
if each day a flower 
climbs up to your lips to seek me, 
ah my love, ah my own, 
in me all that fire is repeated, 
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, 
my love feeds on your love, beloved, 
and as long as you live it will be in your arms 
without leaving mine. 

--Pablo Neruda 

at times...

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because were looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn't do, things we didn't say that could have saved someone we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way. 

-One Tree Hill 

wait...

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:

Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,

and the Master so gently said, “Child, you must wait”.

“Wait? You say, wait!,” my indignant reply.

“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By Faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I can relate,

hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?

I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,

or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

And Lord, You promised that if we believe

we need but to ask, and we shall receive.

Lord, I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:

I’m weary of asking! I need a reply!”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,

As my Master replied once again, “You must wait.”

So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,

and grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting...for what?”

He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,

and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

All you seek I could give, and pleased you would be.

You would have what you want - But, you wouldn’t know Me.”

“You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;

You’d not know the power that I give to the faint;

You’d not learn to see through the clouds of despair;

You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there;

You’d not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence were all you could see.”

“You’d never experience that fullness of love

as the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;

You’d know that I give and I save...(for a start),

But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

“The glow of My comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight.

The depth that’s beyond getting just what you asked

of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.”

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that “My grace is sufficient for Thee.”

“Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true.

But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I’m doing in you!

So, be silent, My Child, and in time you will see,

that the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.”

“And though oft’ may My answers seem terribly late.

My most precious answer of all is still ...WAIT.

wildflower

She's faced the hardest times

you could imagine

and many times her eyes fought back the tears

and when her youthful world

was about to fall in

each time her slender shoulders

bore the weight of all her fears

and a sorrow no one hears

still rings in midnight silence,

in her ears

Let her cry, for she's a lady

let her dream, for she's a child

let the rain fall down upon her

She's a free and gentle flower,

growing wild

and if by chance I should hold her

let me hold her for a time

but if allowed just one possession

I would pick her from the garden,

to be mine

Be careful how you touch her,

for she'll awaken

and sleep's the only freedom that she knows

and when you walk into her eyes,

you won't believe

the way she's always paying

for a debt she never owes

and a silent wind still blows

that only she can hear and so she goes

Let her cry, for she's a lady

let her dream, for she's a child

let the rain fall down upon her

She's a free and gentle flower,

growing wild

crossroads...

There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves at crossroads. Afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us choose to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push on to something better, something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or give someone a second chance, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when we're tested, that we discover who we are, that we discover who we can be. The person we can be does exist, beyond the hard work, faith, belief, and beyond the heartache, and fear of what lies ahead.

In Him alone

I love it when Fulton Oursler said,  "We crucify ourselves between two thieves: Regret for yesterday and fear of tomorrow."

Learn from the past and enjoy life as what it is now. I realized that I really should protect myself from these thieves by surrendering my regrets and fears to God. I should live in  the "NOW" so that I would not be blinded to see God's blessings in my every day life. God's miracles, God's presence, and God's love and care are just everywhere, and how could I not see them? Why do I feel that at some point in my life God doesn't love me, that God doesn't care? because I let these thieves overcome me, COMPLETELY. Now, I am opening my heart again. I should live in the present because I believe that wherever I am now is exactly where God wants me to be. I should be more awake, more aware, more cautious, and more mindful of God's love. Live in the "NOW" so I can see and enjoy God's blessings fully.. (^_^) Oh how blessed I am! 

Bo Sanchez said, "Get rid of hurry from your life." This line truly hit me. Insight? that I should learn to slow down. I should take time to pray, to reflect, to breathe, to rest and to enjoy God's blessings now. 

"Don't ever wait again." --- If I am single now, I should not spend my whole life feeling so "alone" and painstakingly "waiting" for that "one person." While at present, I should enjoy my singleness. Enjoy my freedom. Breathe in God's love. Enjoy His peace. Love His presence. (^_^)

I should tell this to myself  --- "If I am financially hard-up, don't "wait" for prosperity. Be grateful for the prosperity you have now. And because gratitude attracts what you are grateful for, this will attract more prosperity."

"Rest in God." I love it when the Bible says, "But Jesus would go away to lonely places where He prayed." (Luke 5:16) ---  I know I am never that "alone" as what I am feeling now. "Because God loves me, He never says there is no hope for me; rather He works patiently with me, loves me and disciplines me in such a way that it is hard for me to understand the depth of His concern for me."

hopes for tomorrow

My life at the moment is a bit complicated. That's it. I have inner fears that hinder me from being happy. I remember how my life was so simple back then yet I know I was happy and very much at peace.

Last year, I had made a tremendous effort for my career. God knows how much I prayed and how much I hoped for it. There were unfathomable pains, rejections, regrets and failures along the way. Last year was very tough for me. Now I am becoming too afraid of the future. I am afraid that what if this time around, I will go through the same pain again. Work, in all honesty is something that could bring me happiness considering my present situation. I have been feeling so useless for not being able to do my role in the family. No one can never understand how much I feel the hardship of my parents and yet, at the moment, I just could not do anything about it. I guess no one knows how much that hurt me. 

"God is with me in all these pains. I know that I was never alone. I should not be afraid to face my tomorrow because it's already been planned by Him --- for my best." I know and I believe in all these. But sometimes, I am just being too pushy on things. I tend to become impatient. I complain and when I feel overwhelmed with  all the worries, I am losing my hope that nothing good will ever come out from all the unlikely situations I am heavily going through. I was never like this before. I was never pessimistic towards life.

With all the pains in the past, I think those were enough for me to become better in handling difficulties ahead.  I will pray even harder. I hope that God will grant me the courage for me to overcome my fears. I know God's silence in answering my prayers is not actually a "NO" but I guess a "YES" for something better. I believe this year, I'll finally have the job I am working on so hard. I pray for people who can  be instruments of God's love for me and with that, I will be forever thankful to them for the rest of my life. I cannot win this quest alone. I need people to guide me, to help me and most of all I need God to inspire me, to give me courage, and to strengthen me when things are getting tough. 

I know in time, I will gain the happiness, peace and simplicity of life I once enjoyed in the past. In time, things will get better. Everything will fall into place, the desires of my heart will soon finally be answered. Everything will soon make sense, in His time. :)

your pain is...

Your pain is the breaking of the shell
that encloses your understanding.

Even as the stone of the fruit must break,that its
heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

And could you keep your heart in wonder
at the daily miracles of your life, your pain
would not seem less wondrous than your joy;

And you would accept the seasons of your
heart, even as you have always accepted
the seasons that pass over your fields.

And you would watch with serenity
through the winters of your grief.

Much of your pain is self-chosen.

It is the bitter potion by which the
physician within you heals your sick self.

Therefore trust the physician, and drink
his remedy in silence and tranquility:

For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided
by the tender hand of the Unseen,
And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips,
has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter
has moistened with His own sacred tears.

--- Khalil Gibran

If..

"Yes, my mind was wandering. I wished I were there with someone who could bring peace to my heart someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that i would lose him the next day. With that reassurance, the time would pass more slowly. We could be silent for a while because we'd know we had the rest of our lives together for conversation. I wouldn't have to worry about serious matters, about difficult decisions and hard words."

— Paulo Coelho (By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept)

"I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that, in three months’ time, I’ll be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit… Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meeting are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself, and our universe changes directions."

— Paulo Coelho (Eleven Minutes)

"if pain must come, may it come quickly. because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best possible. if he has to make a choice, may he make it now. then i will either wait for him or forget him. waiting is painful. forgetting is painful. but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering."

— Paulo Coelho

"If I am really a part of your dream, you'll come back one day."