My most favorite season of the year is finally here! It is definitely that time of the year again when the season of giving and thanksgiving are felt almost everywhere. Not to mention the parties left and right, Christmas I believe is not just for the young ones but also for the once young but young at heart. Consequently, this is the season to be off from work and that means taking the pleasure of being free from paperworks and simply relishing the comfort of my humble home, savoring my cup of coffee for a few more minutes because I need not hurry for work, and delighting the morning wake up call and breakfast prepared by my hardworking mother. Oh what a joy! Checking status--- ADULTING IN HIATUS until Jan.02, 2019. :)
Now that Christmas is just around the bend, I found my thoughts lately inclined towards the goodness and kindness of God. In some of my alone time the past few days, I can't help but marvel at how good the Lord has been and is to me. My heart just leaps for overwhelming joy now that I feel the need to chronicle what God has done to and through me this year. Jotting down what I am grateful for this year helps me see the faithfulness of God and His being true to His promises, including those times in my life when I thought He was silent and absent. And since 2018 is about to come to a close, I feel that it is right and fitting to recollect God's never-ending faithfulness. Welcoming another year with a grateful heart sets the right kind of attitude and perspective.
So what am I grateful for for the year 2018? Let me recount them...
First, I am so grateful to God for His sustaining grace and power that got me reach the last stretch of the year still so fully alive and kicking! I had been sick a couple of times the previous months and even almost hospitalized but praise God His healing power never run short for me. I had been exhausted physically with all the demands from work but God is so gracious that still I got to meet my work expectations without really taking their toll on me, at least not that worst. The common adage, health is wealth rung so true to me this year and I am so grateful that I was able to bounce back with more strength and endurance. Apart from myself, I also am most thankful to God for blessing my parents with good health. My parents had visited the hospitals this year but God with His mighty name they all came to pass. It is a great blessing to see my parents now even in the midst of inescapable old age still with so much vigor than before. Praise God!
Second, God helped and sustained me in finishing my master's thesis within the set time frame and thus granting my desire to march April this year. Wohooo! This is actually one of the highlights of my 2018. Finishing my masters, this one remarkable moment of my life is something I will always look back to with so much fondness and gratitude. Every time I think about my journey in the graduate school, I always end up believing that really God is a God of perfect timing and He surely will come through in moments when you felt you can't go on any longer, when the pressure is so high and the stress level insurmountable. I had to pass through the eye of the needle in all sorts just to get that hard-earned degree. And now at long last, after the delays and detours, by God's grace my master's journey in the grad school has ended and I am now a certified, Master's degree holder all for God's greater glory!
Third, I am grateful to God for some reconciliations in my relationships that happened in His time this year. God is faithful indeed! The past year was emotionally challenging and troubling for me but because of God's sovereignty, as I lifted to God the woes and cries of my heart, God provided avenues for healing and reconciliation and I couldn't be more grateful to that. I went through a couple of struggles with some people the past year and eventfully this year, these people are still with me, still part of my journey though, but are not there to continue to use or abuse me but to be loved by me, to teach me forgiveness and compassion just as God has been so forgiving and compassionate towards me all my life. I thank God that He has given me new eyes to see things in love. I pray that God will continue to remind me that these people are not sent to crush my spirit but rather prune me and develop in me a Christ-like character for His glory!
Fourth, I am grateful for having met my God-ordained spiritual family. My so called "Dgroup" at CCF is an answered prayer. I remembered praying to God on my 31st birthday that He may bless me with a dgroup and indeed God answered it in no time! God knows how eager I am to belong in a family who loves God and has a growing relationship with Him. These people, my dgroup members are not perfect but that is why we come together for we believe that it is only with our genuine relationship with God and our fellowship and accountability with one another that we can extend beyond ourselves and be a blessing in any way. God always makes His unimaginable ways in making His plans come together. I may not get to meet my dgroup now for some of the members in our group have started their own dgroups already, praise God! I will always be thankful to God that He has crossed our paths together and for that I will be forever grateful. God through my dgroup has planted a seed of gratitude in my heart and that wherever life may take us, for as long as our hearts are right with God, we are good and we are still one in spirit and that our intimate walk with God will keep on. To God be the glory!
Fifth, this year God has shown His love to me by sending people my way, the people who are easy to love and the ones who I am still praying for His extra grace for me to be able to extend and show love. The ones who are easy to love are heaven-sent, I must say. They add joy and excitement to my rather ordinary and at times boring life. They are the ones who speak the truth in love to me. They are the brave ones who would rather tell me the hard truths rather than comfort me with lies and deceits. I really am so grateful to God for having met these people because through them, I get to accept much easier that it's okay for me not to have it all together or to make things in perfect harmony all the time, that no matter how much I try, I can still mess things up and some things are beyond my control. These people remind me that it's okay to be human and to make mistakes. They make me humble. Thank you, Jesus for these people, who now I consider as friends. I pray that I can also be the kind of friend that they are to me. By God's grace, I pray that I can nurture this friendship and bring glory to God. The ones who I am pleading God for extra grace, only God knows why, are also heaven-sent. I am most grateful to them because they teach me to trust God all the more. Through them, I cling to God more for understanding and having perspectives from the vantage point of others. These people help me to come to terms with my own selfishness and I learned that if I consider their comforts more than my own, I am relieved and freed from entitlement. Hence, it is a win-win situation. God's ways are unthinkable that even if I found myself breaking, He wills the pain for my own good. Of course, I don't see it that way at first, but by God's grace in time I learned and understood the wisdom of it and that is why I am most grateful.
And most of all... how can I not thank God for His provisions in my travel adventures? This year, I got to climb mountains which I really really enjoy! I got to climb these mountains in the exact order, starting off with Mt. Paton, then Mt. Capistrano, Mt. Salumayagon, and the Panimahawa Ridge. Not to mention the side trips at Lake Danao, the Nasaad Falls in Claveria and the Dila falls in CEDAR, Impalutao, Bukidnon. Apart from teaching, which is my first love, climbing mountains is also something my heart aches from time to time especially when I am beginning to feel exhausted from work. Being in the wilderness never fails to provide an escape for my weary soul and sets my mind back in perspective. Though the climb could hurt lightly physically, but the benefits it gives me can ease all the pain away. Climbing a mountain is more of a spiritual exercise for me. God displays His strength in my weakness.Thank you Lord for the provision, for the safety, and for bringing me to my happy place where you know I can fully rest and heal. Thank you for planning out my itinerary as you do that makes me know how actively involve you are in my life even though sometimes the enemy would tell and prove me otherwise. Further, I got to visit again Dakak with my coteachers and though my last visit was 5 years ago, nothing much had changed but I must say, I enjoyed the trip more this time. Probably, this must be due to my fearless and crazy companions that I dared the infamous zimerman roller coaster and that made my trip so unforgettable.
I can speak of more, my heart still has much to say, especially thanking God on things that He has not allowed, prayers that He has answered with a no, but I guess that would require another blog post. So I just have to relish all that my heart wants to thank for to God in my prayer. I pray that as we close year 2018, we will take time to look back, see the faithfulness of God, His wondrous works and miracles in our lives and allow the truth of His love live in our hearts as we brace ourselves for yet another year of God's never-ending goodness and love for us all.
Merry CHRISTmas and a blissful 2019!