"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him."1 Corinthians 2:9
Just finished reading Rissa Singson-Kawpeng's Confessions of an Impatient Bride. Well, another heartwarming, tear-jerking, and inspirational narrative I came across. Every time I get to encounter books just like this one, I always think, maybe this is what God wants to tell me at this very moment of my life. Out of the blue, I would come across articles which will eventually lead me to books that later on, change my perspective, increase my faith, and strengthen my relationship with the Lord. The striking lines (such as that one biblical quote on top) never fail to reach the deepest corners of my heart, and somehow, I caught myself in that state where I need to manage that impending emotion, and to rescue myself on the onset of tears, especially when I start to feel that "a lump in my throat" thingy. If there is one thing I am sure of about myself, that is I know I always do well in pretending, hiding emotions, but at the end of the day, I try to put in mind that whatever it is I am feeling, (loneliness, loneliness, and more loneliness) and whatever the cause is, it is a great comfort to believe that after all, God is at work in everything, that He is always faithful, even if we are not. That what He is after for are the greater things! things that we can never ever fathom! things that are far more than we could imagine, and things that are far greater that we actually prayed for. This will tell us that all it takes is --- prayer, and a lot of faith! Easier said than done, though.
As I grow older, most especially in age, huhu! :/ I notice how I change my way of responding to a lot of things. I get to consider things more seriously, and life's never been easy that way! Before, I used to believe in "tomorrow" -- I believed I have all the time in the world to do the things I love. When I was younger, I always believed that if this certain thing won't happen today, I am sure it'll happen tomorrow. I never worry about anything (money, food, friends, and love) because I know my family will always be there for me, to give all the love and support I need. However, as I grow mature, and experienced life's bumpy roads --- triumphs, successes and losses in my life, I started to feel anxious and afraid for "tomorrow." I get to feel that there is no assurance to everything, except for God's unwavering love for all of us! Career may fail, health may weaken, finances may drop-off, and material things may turn decay, but God's unconditional love will last for a lifetime. My fear for "tomorrow" springs from a lack of faith, somewhere hidden in the corners of my mind. Sometimes, I let my fears overcome me completely that I end up losing hope and question my faith. I tend to be very impatient by wanting things to happen in a jiffy. I want God to answer my prayers now and then so that I will finally be happy. I thought of having this belief that if God answers my prayer, then I"ll be happy, and if not, I will forever be miserable. These are just some of my random thoughts, whenever I get to be alone and of course with the right music in the background. But...
I learned the hard way that becoming more mature means becoming more patient and trusting to the will of God. Surrendering my tomorrow, and yielding to what is in store for me, thinking that whatever it is, -- it will be the best! Indeed, we can never understand how God will turn every disturbing situations into blessings. He works in mysterious ways that if loving Him means going through all the odds, then let it be so...
Time is fleeting, things pass, and people change. I do believe that God has greater plans in store for me and for my loved ones. I may not understand the answer to the "whys" yet, but I know in time, in His own perfect time, things, will unfold as the way it should. God is always good and faithful, so why worry?
Yes. I am waiting. You know what it is, God. In Your time.
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